Being Honest Takes a Certain Lack of Self-Confidence

I just started this blog a few days ago, and while I love writing about food (since that seems to be the only topic I've approached thus far), I realized today that maybe this blog will end up being a bit more personal than I thought it would be. I enjoy writing, and I find it comforting; you can't expect me to have a blog and not write about something that's sitting on my mind.

I don't know how personal this blog will become, but I don't want it being as personal as the last one---I'll save those for writing in a Word document or in my plain, written journal. I read over certain entries in my old one, and it astounds me how honest I was and how naked I would feel if other people were to read them. I guess I was comforted by the idea that maybe only JR and SL were reading it, and I really didn't care if they read those entries. (But who knows....the internet leads to easy stalking these days, ha.)

SH and I had a quick talk about this yesterday because she's had a few blogs, too. It's so easy to be honest when you're writing in a blog, and it's never intentional. You start writing about one topic that's been sitting on your mind, and that leads to another idea. Soon, the emotions are running, and your fingers are flying across the keyboard in an attempt to catch up with your thoughts. They just all spill out, and you allow these thoughts to be posted on the internet for anyone to see because you don't exactly know who's going to see it. Feelings and conclusions that you would've never made before somehow end up typed up on your computer screen.

Being so honest on a weblog takes a certain lack of self-confidence because you're unable to verbalize these feelings in person. If this was an idea that was so important to you that it compels you to objectify it on your computer screen, then shouldn't you also have the courage to voice these thoughts to others? But instead, you post it on a weblog where you still have the (perhaps false?) sense of privacy because you don't know who's actually reading your thoughts, but it's also posted on the internet for anyone to find.